A Start To Something New

I am by no means a writer, for the fact of the matter I am by no means a blogger either, However, I am a mother with a whole lot of things on my mind and a ton to say. I am not famous, my baby boutique is not well known. Maybe not one person will ever get to read this, or maybe thousands will. Whatever the case may be I needed a place to put my thoughts, share my ideas, and so forth.

I guess we could always start with an introduction yet I feel you will get to know me very well by reading my blogs. I am made up of so many things yet nothing. Let me explain. Prior to my second son being born, and meeting my current partner, I felt like I almost had a sense of who I was, where I was going, and what I wanted to do with myself. I was not where I wanted to be, but I also felt like I was me. I suffer very much from ADHD more now in my later years of life, or maybe being a new SAHM I recognize it even more now than I ever did before. I don't blame anyone for the way I feel now. I don't even blame myself I almost feel that this is, just how life happened for me, and I am just going through the motions.

My expectations over the years have lessened for myself far less than they were years ago. At the age of 38, I think to myself I am at a crossroads. Am I too old to continue to go the way I am going, or am I too young to not continue the way I am going? It's also very confusing when you have a 14 and a 3-year-old at this age. The 14-year-old reminds me of how young I still am and how far I have come and gone , and the 3-year-old reminds me every day of how old I really am and how much I don't really have left to go. If you are confused by now trust me you're not the only one lol. Don't worry this is only the beginning and my very first post in the These Are the Days of My Life blog. To be continued.....